Me vs. Me

Bad Me:

• Gets irritated easily.
• Reacts and forgets how to be proactive.
• Lazy.
• Frustrated.
• Projects a couldn’t-care-less attitude.
• My own worse enemy. Because I know this isn’t who I am.

Good/Better Me:

• Calm, cool and collected because she has a plan.
• Answers patient calls, and goes to them as promised.
• Turns a deaf ear to unimportant things.
• Considers the patients first before the paperwork, or the demands of the supervisors.
• Helps others when she can, but also know how to say no.
• Stays up late at night trying to rediscover what she loves about her profession.
• Researches about things she encounters at the hospital that she isn’t very familiar with. Think: Isoxsuprine drip, MTX, Cerviprime, Ethical Considerations when patients refuse medical treatment, Postpartum Psychosis.
• Writes her favorite definition of nursing down in a sticky note. Thanks, Virginia Henderson!

There are days when I don’t recognize myself anymore. I am not a saint, and there are really days when I just need to let off some steam. But the important thing is, to find venting methods that are healthy and safe. Good thing, I have colleagues whom I can share some hilarious moments with, and that is an instant pick-me-upper for me. And more importantly, is to not let those bad days define me- to not let them change me for the worse, but for the better. If this is where I am planted right now, then this isn’t an arid place. Here is where I am going to plant some good lessons to harvest someday. And here is where a better me is going to bloom. <3 :)

(Source: emmbraced)